AnsonSiuKingdom's Xanga

Monday, July 07, 2008

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 00:06:38 GMT

No work permit is a big barrier for me to get a job in uk, beside that even the company sponsors my work permit, having no full driving lisence is another reason making me not qualify for many job applications. I can't say i am getting my driving lisence. don't know why I always have a feeling that I want to go back as soon as possible, but I keep saying to myself give some more time the chance will come. I submitted two applications today, don't know what the outcome would be but it is worth to try at least get some interview experience.

Been looking on the recuitment website that my friend recommanded. FUCKING HELL!!! There was none of mechanical engineer position, all bloody positions were related to Civil engineer. I am starting to think about 'is it God want me to go back home?'

I guess if i really decided to go back Hong Kong, I wish we can go to travel europe together before i am on my way home. Starting the first step into a busy working society after 20 years of student life. I really don't have a bloody clue what is going to be like but I have two things that give me support and walk along with me. First is the powerful God; I have faith in him that he will provide what i need and is the best for me. Second is my beloved Cath, she has been encouraging and with me when i was having a tough time.

Just wanted to tell you that I am going to work in newton take away starting from tomorrow, I will be working on every Monday and Wednesday, which gives kp some time off so that he can go to see his girl friend in Nottingham.

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 19:26:53 GMT

Having u to be my girl friend is the happiest thing in my life, however, after reading ur xanga, knowing all ur concern and feeling. I fail to be a good boy friend. I just want to say it is my fault, maybe i am not giving enough in our relationship. This is probably also the reason i failed the previous relationships, but i do hope this time will work and i know what i am going to do, i will work it out as a reliable boy friend. I don't want to talk too much here because one step move is more than talk thousand times. Love u, see ya!!!!

Job application inquiry

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 18:54:07 GMT

I don't like being rejected, in fact i haven't been rejected offically. Several times I went on the website wanted to fill in the applcation form, I being fouled at the first step which was asking the candidate's eligibilty of working in UK. So I change my strategy today, I sent an email to the companies I want to apply for before actually making the applications, asking weather they take international student, if they don't take international student then I will not bother to send my CV and cover letter.

Monday, June 30, 2008

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 18:02:36 GMT

Don't want to go through too much detail about how i felt when i was on my way to Prof. Lees 's office. In fact, I went to his office twice tried to figure out what's going on and I found that the stupid office lady put my student no. on BEng list accidentally. Prof. Lees promised me it was just a mistake and I should be on MEng.

I found lose recently, when i wake up everyday I ask myself What am i going to do today beside job hunting? I 'd definitely not go back to where I used to go when I get bored; the footies finished yesterday I have no excuses go back in there now, which is good I don't need to spend extra money on that evil things.

I need to be strong, I cannot be afraid becuase I am no longer alone. Since she appeared two months ago, my life have been changed, which became more colourful, full of joy and love. Sometime i have a thought that she is too good for me. She is a decent, nice and talented girl and I am just a......( I don't know what i am comparing to her). God gave her to me and I definitely don't want to lose her therefore I really need to be a better man who she can rely on and feels protected. I need to pray god that he will look after this relationship and guide me to success.

Result release day

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 11:36:00 GMT

ATPM02	Product Lifecycle Management - New Product Introduction	Advanced Telecommunications (Institute of)	M	Semester 1 (Sep-Jan Teaching Block)		10	72%	P
	EG-M07	Optimisation	Engineering (School of)	M	Semester 2 (Jan - Jun Teaching Block)		10	77%	P
	EG-M23	Finite Element Computational Analysis	Engineering (School of)	M	Semester 1 (Sep-Jan Teaching Block)		10	60%	P
	EG-M26	Computer Modelling	Engineering (School of)	M	Semester 1 (Sep-Jan Teaching Block)		10	68%	P
	EG-M47	Entrepreneurship for Engineers	Engineering (School of)	M	Semester 1 (Sep-Jan Teaching Block)		10	61%	P
	EG-M61	Computational Intelligence in Engineering	Engineering (School of)	M	Semester 2 (Jan - Jun Teaching Block)		10	73%	P
	EG-M62	Group project	Engineering (School of)	M	Semester 1 and 2 (Sep-Jun Teaching Block)		30	60%	P
	EG-M63	Research Dissertation	Engineering (School of)	M	Semester 1 and 2 (Sep-Jun Teaching Block)		10	56%	P
	EGIM04	Advanced Fluid Mechanics	Engineering (School of)	M	Semester 1 (Sep-Jan Teaching Block)		10	50%	P
	EGIM07	Dynamics and Transient Analysis	Engineering (School of)	M	Semester 2 (Jan - Jun Teaching Block)		10	54%	P

The above is my final result it seems quite good but I got 2:2 in overall result. I went to see my result last friday I went in to the breakout room in Tilbot building there was lots of people, I saw alot of students and lecturers chating, staff are pouring drinks for them and also photoshooting service avilable. Most of them were happy, however there're few of those sat on the chair and didn't make a sound and looked disappointed. I bet they didn't get the result they expected. I went to the table belong to my course. I looked on the list which showed the result of every students. I felt nervous after i looked at the list. My student no. is not on the list, Andy came to me and said 'what is your student no., I couldn't find your no'. I replied 'my no. is not on the list'. 'See professor Lees' he told me. Prof. Lees office is on the first floor I wanted to see him so I talked out form the room and went upstair. I had a thought when i was walking up on the stair. I felt empty in my soul, no one was there and the environment was completely silent. I didn't feel good, its like something bad is gonna happen. (To be continued .....)

Feeling Pressure

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 16:59:40 GMT

The Pressure I am having at the moment has been biggest ever in my life. I suppose to be feeling exciting for finish my first degree which i thought is the a great achievement and milestone in my life. But I cannot feel any excitments at all whereas the pressure is building up everyday. Not able to get a job, not even be invited to attend interview makes me feel frustrating. I will give few more monthsfor job hunting, and will fuck off if nothing happens.

Friday, February 15, 2008

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 22:27:47 GMT

Water being poured out, cannot be returned. But a damaged friendship possibly can be fixed. I want to fix the relationship between you and me. Someone has been ignoring me since last Christmas and I wanted to change it back to normal at least. I knew that I have been emotional and It has been last for such a long time, due to many many unfortunate incidents and maybe my immaturely action hurt the relationship between us. In order to fix this as I wish to, I would take the initiative this time, at least please talk to me. People make mistakes and I hope what I did is forgettable and forgivable. I knew you've had a great time during these days and you don’t need to do this as you may thing it is wasting your time. If you really think it has no necessarily desire to fix our friendship, then I am here to give my sincere apologise and will disappear.

I believe God can fix this relationship, because I know he the powerful God, Amen!!!

Friday, January 18, 2008

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 05:51:25 GMT

I can't talk my stuff to anyone else in student village, there is no one I can fully trust, none of them, especially the guy lives next door. I can't really make friends in the village. Well!!!! maybe one or two, the others are just a normal persons. I don't think I would keep in touch with them when I leave this place.There are a lot of gossip people in the village, especially in chinese comunity. Gossip flies between them and it never ends. I fed up with it. I stopped making friend with chinese students and went to live with local students in my second year here in Swansea. It was the happiest time ever the time in Swansea. This year is my last year study in University, I deciced to live with Chinese student again, but I think It was a wrong decision, they are still who they are.

One day, one of my friends sent me an application which calls 'best friend'. I took it seriouly when it required me to choose the list of my best friends but I didn't know why I did that. I went throught the entire friend list few times, I could only pick two names and they are not a student in Swansea University. Maybe I am old enough to have a generation grap between us.

Friday, November 23, 2007

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 22:38:51 GMT

How can i be outstanding in the middle of peoples? I know there are many people in the queue. Shall I able to be considered as your first choice in the quene. But what i want to say is that it is not about standard or a test they have to pass, However, I will seek as high as i could in order to be your shelter, if someone being annoying.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Thu, 22 Nov 2007 17:37:03 GMT

Let go and move, probably the best way to get rid of the pain. I need to find myself a reason before I leave, I know i just lie to myself but it's good enough to take less pain. I know I am not perfect but I am not bad either!!! We are not done yet!!!!!!